Day 19 - Now: The Course, The Wagon, and The By-Week

Turns out, this is a lot harder than I expected. I mean, I eat decently around 70% of the time I would say. But eating properly 95% of the time is so hard. Especially when things happen. I'm an emotional eater and I think the fact I can admit that is something to celebrate.

I had my personal training course this last weekend. And while it was challenging physically (hello lack of sleep and driving across Calgary) it was hard mentally, and surprisingly spiritually. The instructor Andrea, is hands down, one of the most interesting people I have ever met. I feel blessed to have gotten the opportunity to meet her and be included in her class. She challenged each of us. I learnt so much more than just personal training this weekend. I feel like this weekend has set me on a path to self discovery. I have always been a spiritual person. I have always loved the hippie things like reiki. I feel like this is going to be a big change for me. I feel it already. Looking at yourself in a mirror is hard. It's hard to admit what you're doing is wrong, or even what you're doing is mean. I hope to start this journey to myself, and maybe document what happens on here.

Otherwise, not much has changed, I'm taking a by-week with rest and relaxation. I need to recharge my batteries. I always forget about how important rest is. I am bad at that. I need to get my rest. I need to recharge and stretch. It's such an important part of any healthy lifestyle and I totally forgot about that. I was focused on something totally different. Now I am going to learn to take rest days, enjoy them and not stress about having some time off (or for that matter, time at home with my kid)

-Bailey

Days 17 & 18: Drinking and Dancing

This weekend has been a crazy crazy weekend. Maybe just because I know I'm going back to work so I want to try to get stuff done before I am working again. Or maybe it was just crazy in my mind.

Saturday night, I went to celebrate a friends upcoming wedding with pasta, and drinking. I am NOT a big drinker. At all. Like barely drink. So this was a challenge.

We hit up one of my favourite pasta restaurants in Edmonton, and I managed to attempt to be healthy and order myself a salad. However, it being mostly dark leafy greens, which I tend to find quite bitter, and my body isn't the best at digesting them. I chased them with my giant glass of wine and was pretty happy.

We ended up heading out in a limo for a booze cruise. This cruise included jell-o shots and malibu soaked gummy bears. Here's a couple things they should have known about me.

1) I hate jello
2) I hate malibu

I'll admit, I had some of the jello shots. They mostly made me feel like when you have the flu, with a little bit of vodka. The gummy bears didn't go anywhere near me. So gross.

Luckily there was quite a bit of dancing involved!

boom.

Heres the shot from my fitbit. Look at all those steps! And them active minutes!,

However, since I rarely drink, I'll admit I was feeling a little rough this morning. I should have probably had some water before bed. But I got up and did the mom thing. Started chugging my water. I even went for a treadmill run today! I feel like thats a gain. Before, I usually would have just napped while my kid napped, but today I decided to sweat. I drank water and had healthy snacks. I made a delicious dinner of turkey burgers, and a selection of leftover sides. The pasta salad I made originally called for mayo but I switched that out for just plain yogurt. I cut up more cucumbers than pasta, and sprinkled a healthy dose of dill. It was so yummy! Even the kid enjoyed it!

But the real star was this burger. I usually hate how dry turkey burgers can be. However, these ones turned out super juicy and delicious.

1lb turkey
1/4-1/2 cup of diced onions
1 clove minced garlic
shake of panko
egg whites
parsley

It was so good! I have left overs luckily to enjoy the rest of the week.

Aww yeah giant turkey burger. 

I'm glad I didn't just order pizza, or eat the frozen pizza in the freezer. I'm glad I made the choice to eat healthy. Hopefully this is a step in the right direction.

This makes me hungry. 

I'm still going to admit that snacking at night is still killing me. I am sitting here and just wanting to eat everything. I hate that feeling. I wish there was something that was filling and delicious that wasn't terrible to eat before bed. Any one have any thoughts! Leave a comment and let me know!

-Bailey

Day 14-16: Scared as Shit

Hopefully I can get back to remembering/not being lazy and blog at night.

I have been struggling lately. A lot.

I go back to work full time on Tuesday. I'm excited to start this new chapter, but so scared of the unknown. I am very much a creature of habit and have a nice cushy routine that I have literally been on for almost 2 years. And for that to change, I'm nervous.

I'm nervous about leaving my kid.

I'm nervous about working full time.

I'm nervous about not reaching my potential.

I know I have support, but sometimes, I feel like I'm the only one who just keeps looking at myself and saying "you can do this". I know my husband is supportive and he's totally okay with this. I know I'm not the first mom in the history of the world who went back to work. But I feel like I'm the only mom who's making the choice to work. I don't have to. I don't need to work full time. I don't need to work even part time. I don't need to work. I want to work. I'm tired of only talking to my kid or kids at work. I rarely get to chat with friends unless our kids are involved.

I want to talk to people. Talk to people about things other than tantrums, cheese strings, and poop.

I'm hoping that once I'm totally into the routine it will be easier. I know it's never going to be totally easy. It's going to suck going from taking my kid wherever I want during business hours to having to do stuff on the weekends like the rest of the population.

I'm so nervous. Hopefully I made the right choice.

-Bailey

ps. I know there isn't anything in here about my diet, but I'm hoping you can surmise that it hasn't been great and I've gotten on and off this bandwagon so much that I have bruises.

Days 9-13: Sushi, Crab Enchiladas and Getting Lost in the Ladies Changeroom

Whoa. It's been awhile since I've been on here. I mean, almost a week right? Well today is day 14. I still feel like I'm struggling. I don't know what my issue is. But lets get back to last week.

After my amazing lettuce burger (still drooling over it) I headed out to Saskatoon with my sis for a family thing. Well, the evening we arrived, we were treated to a delicious all you can eat sushi dinner. Now, I can eat A LOT of sushi. It's so good. Wasabi?! YES PLEASE! I ate and ate and ate. I was so happy I wore stretchy pants. Otherwise, I think I may have exploded like an overstuffed sausage.

I managed to hit up the Saskatoon Goodlife Fitness on Saturday morning and may I just say, this place is GIANT. I actually got lost in the ladies changing area. I mean, there was a hallway I thought may have been another exit, and it turns out it's just the door to the janitorial supplies. Oops.

Once I managed to find my way out, I had a pretty awesome chest and tricep day. Although I was feeling kind of weak by my second and third sets of skull crushers, I think it went pretty decently.

That afternoon, I devoured a GIANT crab enchilada. Thanks Amigos! So delicious. I mean, this thing was the size of a new born child and I ordered 2. I ate so much food. Then sat in a car for 5 hours. Followed by a disappointing salad from Sobeys. It was a day.

Gym days have been pretty typical lately. Nothing new there. I have been managing to eat what I feel is complete and udder crap. Candy and chippies. I try so hard to be strong when my man is home from work. But I struggle to watch him eat a pint of ice cream and not have a little sumthin' sum thin' of my own. Ugh. As I do every wednesday, I say to myself, I will do better next week.

Today hasn't been terrible so far. I stuffed a giant bagel and cream cheese in my mouth while driving the car because I read the schedule wrong and was supposed to work. Then sushi and being force fed goldfish crackers by my kid. I'm hoping for some BBQ chicken and roasted brussel sprouts tonight. I feel like I just need healthy food even though my body is like "you want chicken nuggets and friiiiiies. YOU NEED CHICKEN NUGGETS AND FRIES".

Shut up body. You'll like what I give you.

-Bailey

Day One: A Lesson in Stress and Carbs

Well today I wanted to start my fitness challenge, and it was just that...a challenge.

It started out okay. Kid slept in, I woke up feeling marginally rested. Did my measurements off an old set of measurements I found in my phone and lost an inch on my waist since March (hooray!)

Then it all went to shit.

My kid is almost 2. I don't think I need to go into more detail, but there is a lot of stress, a lot of tantrums, and I like to hide and eat those feelings. It also doesn't help that my spouse works out of town, so on these days where there have been more tears than smiles, I don't get a break. It's all me baby.

Stress has always been a big reason for many people to over eat (hello three servings of pasta tonight....). I wish I knew a way to combat that.

But before my day took a crazy turn, I managed to get in some measurements, and sad mirror selfies in my undies.

Gah, nothing like seeing pictures in your undies to be like ugh.

My current measurements aren't terrible I think. Considering where I have come from. 

Bust: 39.5"

Waist: 34"

I measured that weird zone below my belly button: 39.5"

Hips: 44.5"

I didn't think my breakfast was too terrible either. A nice bowl of porridge (since I was out of eggs...) that had Walden Farms pancake syrup, stevia, cinnamon and berries on it, a nice cup of coffee. My Progressives veggiegreens and my selection of vitamins. 

After breakfast, I headed to the gym for a well needed leg day. I'm that person who loves leg day. Today I added 10lbs to my squat (yay!), followed that with some sumo squats, then I met up with a friend for some donkey kicks on the cable machine, and a little leg press and some calf raises. I finished off with a treadmill incline walk, and BCAA's.

I managed to stuff a bagel and ham into my mouth for lunch, and a giant bowl of popcorn with my kid, then way too much pasta for supper. Right now I'm feeling heavy and gross. 

Here's to tomorrow! Hopefully, I'll go get some eggs. 

_bailey 

June Challenge Day 1

Today I had a plan.

In order to motivate prospective clients, I figured, I should see what kind of changes I can make in just one month of eating healthy(ish) and exercising regularly.

Then I woke up this morning with a migraine.

Fast forward all day to right this second, where I am still dealing with the remains of the headache, and eating chocolate in my bed. No interest in weigh ins, measurements, and taking pictures of the food I consume in a day. No selfies in the gym. Basically I was in my pyjamas until 4pm. And even then, it was a challenge to get out of them.

Shit like this happens. Tomorrow, I will try again. Tomorrow is always another day.

I will wake up and start my day, hopefully crush a long needed leg day, have a healthy lunch and do my stuff. 

Hopefully a good night of sleep and advil will help kill this migraine.

-Bailey