Turns out, this is a lot harder than I expected. I mean, I eat decently around 70% of the time I would say. But eating properly 95% of the time is so hard. Especially when things happen. I'm an emotional eater and I think the fact I can admit that is something to celebrate.
I had my personal training course this last weekend. And while it was challenging physically (hello lack of sleep and driving across Calgary) it was hard mentally, and surprisingly spiritually. The instructor Andrea, is hands down, one of the most interesting people I have ever met. I feel blessed to have gotten the opportunity to meet her and be included in her class. She challenged each of us. I learnt so much more than just personal training this weekend. I feel like this weekend has set me on a path to self discovery. I have always been a spiritual person. I have always loved the hippie things like reiki. I feel like this is going to be a big change for me. I feel it already. Looking at yourself in a mirror is hard. It's hard to admit what you're doing is wrong, or even what you're doing is mean. I hope to start this journey to myself, and maybe document what happens on here.
Otherwise, not much has changed, I'm taking a by-week with rest and relaxation. I need to recharge my batteries. I always forget about how important rest is. I am bad at that. I need to get my rest. I need to recharge and stretch. It's such an important part of any healthy lifestyle and I totally forgot about that. I was focused on something totally different. Now I am going to learn to take rest days, enjoy them and not stress about having some time off (or for that matter, time at home with my kid)
-Bailey
Wednesday, June 29, 2016
Sunday, June 19, 2016
Days 17 & 18: Drinking and Dancing
This weekend has been a crazy crazy weekend. Maybe just because I know I'm going back to work so I want to try to get stuff done before I am working again. Or maybe it was just crazy in my mind.
Saturday night, I went to celebrate a friends upcoming wedding with pasta, and drinking. I am NOT a big drinker. At all. Like barely drink. So this was a challenge.
We hit up one of my favourite pasta restaurants in Edmonton, and I managed to attempt to be healthy and order myself a salad. However, it being mostly dark leafy greens, which I tend to find quite bitter, and my body isn't the best at digesting them. I chased them with my giant glass of wine and was pretty happy.
We ended up heading out in a limo for a booze cruise. This cruise included jell-o shots and malibu soaked gummy bears. Here's a couple things they should have known about me.
1) I hate jello
2) I hate malibu
I'll admit, I had some of the jello shots. They mostly made me feel like when you have the flu, with a little bit of vodka. The gummy bears didn't go anywhere near me. So gross.
Luckily there was quite a bit of dancing involved!
Heres the shot from my fitbit. Look at all those steps! And them active minutes!,
However, since I rarely drink, I'll admit I was feeling a little rough this morning. I should have probably had some water before bed. But I got up and did the mom thing. Started chugging my water. I even went for a treadmill run today! I feel like thats a gain. Before, I usually would have just napped while my kid napped, but today I decided to sweat. I drank water and had healthy snacks. I made a delicious dinner of turkey burgers, and a selection of leftover sides. The pasta salad I made originally called for mayo but I switched that out for just plain yogurt. I cut up more cucumbers than pasta, and sprinkled a healthy dose of dill. It was so yummy! Even the kid enjoyed it!
But the real star was this burger. I usually hate how dry turkey burgers can be. However, these ones turned out super juicy and delicious.
1lb turkey
1/4-1/2 cup of diced onions
1 clove minced garlic
shake of panko
egg whites
parsley
It was so good! I have left overs luckily to enjoy the rest of the week.
I'm glad I didn't just order pizza, or eat the frozen pizza in the freezer. I'm glad I made the choice to eat healthy. Hopefully this is a step in the right direction.
I'm still going to admit that snacking at night is still killing me. I am sitting here and just wanting to eat everything. I hate that feeling. I wish there was something that was filling and delicious that wasn't terrible to eat before bed. Any one have any thoughts! Leave a comment and let me know!
Saturday night, I went to celebrate a friends upcoming wedding with pasta, and drinking. I am NOT a big drinker. At all. Like barely drink. So this was a challenge.
We hit up one of my favourite pasta restaurants in Edmonton, and I managed to attempt to be healthy and order myself a salad. However, it being mostly dark leafy greens, which I tend to find quite bitter, and my body isn't the best at digesting them. I chased them with my giant glass of wine and was pretty happy.
We ended up heading out in a limo for a booze cruise. This cruise included jell-o shots and malibu soaked gummy bears. Here's a couple things they should have known about me.
1) I hate jello
2) I hate malibu
I'll admit, I had some of the jello shots. They mostly made me feel like when you have the flu, with a little bit of vodka. The gummy bears didn't go anywhere near me. So gross.
Luckily there was quite a bit of dancing involved!
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| boom. |
Heres the shot from my fitbit. Look at all those steps! And them active minutes!,
However, since I rarely drink, I'll admit I was feeling a little rough this morning. I should have probably had some water before bed. But I got up and did the mom thing. Started chugging my water. I even went for a treadmill run today! I feel like thats a gain. Before, I usually would have just napped while my kid napped, but today I decided to sweat. I drank water and had healthy snacks. I made a delicious dinner of turkey burgers, and a selection of leftover sides. The pasta salad I made originally called for mayo but I switched that out for just plain yogurt. I cut up more cucumbers than pasta, and sprinkled a healthy dose of dill. It was so yummy! Even the kid enjoyed it!
But the real star was this burger. I usually hate how dry turkey burgers can be. However, these ones turned out super juicy and delicious.
1lb turkey
1/4-1/2 cup of diced onions
1 clove minced garlic
shake of panko
egg whites
parsley
It was so good! I have left overs luckily to enjoy the rest of the week.
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| Aww yeah giant turkey burger. |
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| This makes me hungry. |
-Bailey
Friday, June 17, 2016
Day 14-16: Scared as Shit
Hopefully I can get back to remembering/not being lazy and blog at night.
I have been struggling lately. A lot.
I go back to work full time on Tuesday. I'm excited to start this new chapter, but so scared of the unknown. I am very much a creature of habit and have a nice cushy routine that I have literally been on for almost 2 years. And for that to change, I'm nervous.
I'm nervous about leaving my kid.
I'm nervous about working full time.
I'm nervous about not reaching my potential.
I know I have support, but sometimes, I feel like I'm the only one who just keeps looking at myself and saying "you can do this". I know my husband is supportive and he's totally okay with this. I know I'm not the first mom in the history of the world who went back to work. But I feel like I'm the only mom who's making the choice to work. I don't have to. I don't need to work full time. I don't need to work even part time. I don't need to work. I want to work. I'm tired of only talking to my kid or kids at work. I rarely get to chat with friends unless our kids are involved.
I want to talk to people. Talk to people about things other than tantrums, cheese strings, and poop.
I'm hoping that once I'm totally into the routine it will be easier. I know it's never going to be totally easy. It's going to suck going from taking my kid wherever I want during business hours to having to do stuff on the weekends like the rest of the population.
I'm so nervous. Hopefully I made the right choice.
-Bailey
ps. I know there isn't anything in here about my diet, but I'm hoping you can surmise that it hasn't been great and I've gotten on and off this bandwagon so much that I have bruises.
I have been struggling lately. A lot.
I go back to work full time on Tuesday. I'm excited to start this new chapter, but so scared of the unknown. I am very much a creature of habit and have a nice cushy routine that I have literally been on for almost 2 years. And for that to change, I'm nervous.
I'm nervous about leaving my kid.
I'm nervous about working full time.
I'm nervous about not reaching my potential.
I know I have support, but sometimes, I feel like I'm the only one who just keeps looking at myself and saying "you can do this". I know my husband is supportive and he's totally okay with this. I know I'm not the first mom in the history of the world who went back to work. But I feel like I'm the only mom who's making the choice to work. I don't have to. I don't need to work full time. I don't need to work even part time. I don't need to work. I want to work. I'm tired of only talking to my kid or kids at work. I rarely get to chat with friends unless our kids are involved.
I want to talk to people. Talk to people about things other than tantrums, cheese strings, and poop.
I'm hoping that once I'm totally into the routine it will be easier. I know it's never going to be totally easy. It's going to suck going from taking my kid wherever I want during business hours to having to do stuff on the weekends like the rest of the population.
I'm so nervous. Hopefully I made the right choice.
-Bailey
ps. I know there isn't anything in here about my diet, but I'm hoping you can surmise that it hasn't been great and I've gotten on and off this bandwagon so much that I have bruises.
Wednesday, June 15, 2016
Days 9-13: Sushi, Crab Enchiladas and Getting Lost in the Ladies Changeroom
Whoa. It's been awhile since I've been on here. I mean, almost a week right? Well today is day 14. I still feel like I'm struggling. I don't know what my issue is. But lets get back to last week.
After my amazing lettuce burger (still drooling over it) I headed out to Saskatoon with my sis for a family thing. Well, the evening we arrived, we were treated to a delicious all you can eat sushi dinner. Now, I can eat A LOT of sushi. It's so good. Wasabi?! YES PLEASE! I ate and ate and ate. I was so happy I wore stretchy pants. Otherwise, I think I may have exploded like an overstuffed sausage.
I managed to hit up the Saskatoon Goodlife Fitness on Saturday morning and may I just say, this place is GIANT. I actually got lost in the ladies changing area. I mean, there was a hallway I thought may have been another exit, and it turns out it's just the door to the janitorial supplies. Oops.
Once I managed to find my way out, I had a pretty awesome chest and tricep day. Although I was feeling kind of weak by my second and third sets of skull crushers, I think it went pretty decently.
That afternoon, I devoured a GIANT crab enchilada. Thanks Amigos! So delicious. I mean, this thing was the size of a new born child and I ordered 2. I ate so much food. Then sat in a car for 5 hours. Followed by a disappointing salad from Sobeys. It was a day.
Gym days have been pretty typical lately. Nothing new there. I have been managing to eat what I feel is complete and udder crap. Candy and chippies. I try so hard to be strong when my man is home from work. But I struggle to watch him eat a pint of ice cream and not have a little sumthin' sum thin' of my own. Ugh. As I do every wednesday, I say to myself, I will do better next week.
Today hasn't been terrible so far. I stuffed a giant bagel and cream cheese in my mouth while driving the car because I read the schedule wrong and was supposed to work. Then sushi and being force fed goldfish crackers by my kid. I'm hoping for some BBQ chicken and roasted brussel sprouts tonight. I feel like I just need healthy food even though my body is like "you want chicken nuggets and friiiiiies. YOU NEED CHICKEN NUGGETS AND FRIES".
Shut up body. You'll like what I give you.
-Bailey
After my amazing lettuce burger (still drooling over it) I headed out to Saskatoon with my sis for a family thing. Well, the evening we arrived, we were treated to a delicious all you can eat sushi dinner. Now, I can eat A LOT of sushi. It's so good. Wasabi?! YES PLEASE! I ate and ate and ate. I was so happy I wore stretchy pants. Otherwise, I think I may have exploded like an overstuffed sausage.
I managed to hit up the Saskatoon Goodlife Fitness on Saturday morning and may I just say, this place is GIANT. I actually got lost in the ladies changing area. I mean, there was a hallway I thought may have been another exit, and it turns out it's just the door to the janitorial supplies. Oops.
Once I managed to find my way out, I had a pretty awesome chest and tricep day. Although I was feeling kind of weak by my second and third sets of skull crushers, I think it went pretty decently.
That afternoon, I devoured a GIANT crab enchilada. Thanks Amigos! So delicious. I mean, this thing was the size of a new born child and I ordered 2. I ate so much food. Then sat in a car for 5 hours. Followed by a disappointing salad from Sobeys. It was a day.
Gym days have been pretty typical lately. Nothing new there. I have been managing to eat what I feel is complete and udder crap. Candy and chippies. I try so hard to be strong when my man is home from work. But I struggle to watch him eat a pint of ice cream and not have a little sumthin' sum thin' of my own. Ugh. As I do every wednesday, I say to myself, I will do better next week.
Today hasn't been terrible so far. I stuffed a giant bagel and cream cheese in my mouth while driving the car because I read the schedule wrong and was supposed to work. Then sushi and being force fed goldfish crackers by my kid. I'm hoping for some BBQ chicken and roasted brussel sprouts tonight. I feel like I just need healthy food even though my body is like "you want chicken nuggets and friiiiiies. YOU NEED CHICKEN NUGGETS AND FRIES".
Shut up body. You'll like what I give you.
-Bailey
Thursday, June 9, 2016
Day 8: Lettuce Wrapped Burgers and One Singular Cheese Stick
Today was another fairly decent day. One minor slip up, but more on that later.
I slept in which is a nice treat. Hit up the gym for back and biceps day. Close grip lat pull downs, straight arm pull downs, chin ups and some concentration curls, and finally bicep curls. It was a good day!
I managed to eat fairly decently as well. Additional left over frittata and hash browns, sushi, and then, the greatest thing ever THE WEDGIE BURGER from Red Robin. Seriously so good.
This burger is is only 450 calories (if you get the side salad obviously). It really hits the spot when you want a burger, but also don't want to eat 1200 calories in just one meal. It's so good.
I slept in which is a nice treat. Hit up the gym for back and biceps day. Close grip lat pull downs, straight arm pull downs, chin ups and some concentration curls, and finally bicep curls. It was a good day!
I managed to eat fairly decently as well. Additional left over frittata and hash browns, sushi, and then, the greatest thing ever THE WEDGIE BURGER from Red Robin. Seriously so good.
This burger is is only 450 calories (if you get the side salad obviously). It really hits the spot when you want a burger, but also don't want to eat 1200 calories in just one meal. It's so good.
After I had my victorious dinner, I had some candy. I'm feeling a little bit like I failed. After I ate it, I couldn't help but feel gross. Whether it be from the candy, or because I ate it like it was going out of style, I'm not sure. But I feel kind of like ralphing.
It wasn't even the kind of candy I wanted. #doubledisappointment
I'm hoping to actually hit the gym this weekend too. Now for my evening protein drink and some tv.
-Bailey
Wednesday, June 8, 2016
Day 7: My Legs, My Back, My Protein, and My Carbs
Day 7: One week Later...
Today was an awesome leg day at the gym. Cranked out quite a few squats at 75lbs. Going to hopefully attempt 85lbs next week!
Tried a new exercise today too. Cable pull throughs. I was hoping to target my hamstrings, which is always a fun thing to do, but it turns out this is for a good ol booty! I think I was doing it wrong as I mostly felt awkward and that I was going to give myself a giant crotch wedgie...I'm planning to attempt it again hopefully, and maybe get my form a little better.
A friend of mine wanted to try holding a back extension for 3 minutes today, and I figured, I can do that. Well about 30 seconds in, I was wondering what the hell I just agreed to. It was awful. Man oh man, that is killer. I feel like my butt is going to be hella sore this weekend.
It wasn't as stressful a day as there have been in the past week, but there was a lot of errand doing. And errand doing always results in crappy lunch choices. Today after some googling (while waiting in the parking lot of Rona) I found that McDonalds has a new chicken sandwich called the 12. It has only 400 calories for the sandwich if you get the grilled one. I got that one today, with no sauce, but I can't find the nutritional info for no sauce on it. I'm considering it minus 100 calories since that's how much McChicken sauce is, a whole mcdonalds sandwich for 300 cals, isn't half bad. And the sandwich wasn't terrible either.
I had a snack of some pretzel sticks and whipped peanut butter, and a babybel cheese (yum!). I ended up enjoying some pizza tonight with my folks before they head out of town tomorrow. PS. The pizza was delicious. I ain't even sorry.
Tomorrow will be cardio time at the gym, with a little back and biceps. I'm hoping that I'll be able to check out the Goodlife in Saskatoon this weekend if I have some time. Always enjoy checking out other facilities.
My snack tonight will be some protein and some glutamine. Because I'm lazy and that's what I made.
-Bailey
Today was an awesome leg day at the gym. Cranked out quite a few squats at 75lbs. Going to hopefully attempt 85lbs next week!
Tried a new exercise today too. Cable pull throughs. I was hoping to target my hamstrings, which is always a fun thing to do, but it turns out this is for a good ol booty! I think I was doing it wrong as I mostly felt awkward and that I was going to give myself a giant crotch wedgie...I'm planning to attempt it again hopefully, and maybe get my form a little better.
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| Not what I looked like while doing this. |
A friend of mine wanted to try holding a back extension for 3 minutes today, and I figured, I can do that. Well about 30 seconds in, I was wondering what the hell I just agreed to. It was awful. Man oh man, that is killer. I feel like my butt is going to be hella sore this weekend.
It wasn't as stressful a day as there have been in the past week, but there was a lot of errand doing. And errand doing always results in crappy lunch choices. Today after some googling (while waiting in the parking lot of Rona) I found that McDonalds has a new chicken sandwich called the 12. It has only 400 calories for the sandwich if you get the grilled one. I got that one today, with no sauce, but I can't find the nutritional info for no sauce on it. I'm considering it minus 100 calories since that's how much McChicken sauce is, a whole mcdonalds sandwich for 300 cals, isn't half bad. And the sandwich wasn't terrible either.
I had a snack of some pretzel sticks and whipped peanut butter, and a babybel cheese (yum!). I ended up enjoying some pizza tonight with my folks before they head out of town tomorrow. PS. The pizza was delicious. I ain't even sorry.
Tomorrow will be cardio time at the gym, with a little back and biceps. I'm hoping that I'll be able to check out the Goodlife in Saskatoon this weekend if I have some time. Always enjoy checking out other facilities.
My snack tonight will be some protein and some glutamine. Because I'm lazy and that's what I made.
-Bailey
Tuesday, June 7, 2016
Day 6: More of the Same
Tuesday. Just another name for Mondays. Ugh. I tell ya, today was a day.
I had to work this morning which, while it's awesome and I love the people I work with, cuts into my day in a major way. I basically had to work when I'd usually be working out. So today, there was no workout. Diet was kind of all over the place too. Tim Hortons double double, bagel, timbits, peanut butter and jelly sandwich (mine and half of Clara's), then I basically laid in bed feeling tired and getting annoyed at the knot in my shoulder. Supper was chicken parmesan with my parents and far too much ravioli and fro-yo bars.
I wish I had the conviction to stay on diet plan when it comes to stressful days. I didn't cave and buy something like a chocolate bar or chips, which is where I'd usually go, so I guess I made some steps in the right direction.
I hate stressful days when I can't squat heavy or press heavy to get rid of that general feeling of icky-ness. I want to sit and eat all my feelings. I'm just feeling like I could sleep for 90 days and still not feel rested. It's just frustrating right now.
Time for a snack. (cottage cheese with cocoa and a packet of stevia.)
-Bailey
I had to work this morning which, while it's awesome and I love the people I work with, cuts into my day in a major way. I basically had to work when I'd usually be working out. So today, there was no workout. Diet was kind of all over the place too. Tim Hortons double double, bagel, timbits, peanut butter and jelly sandwich (mine and half of Clara's), then I basically laid in bed feeling tired and getting annoyed at the knot in my shoulder. Supper was chicken parmesan with my parents and far too much ravioli and fro-yo bars.
I wish I had the conviction to stay on diet plan when it comes to stressful days. I didn't cave and buy something like a chocolate bar or chips, which is where I'd usually go, so I guess I made some steps in the right direction.
I hate stressful days when I can't squat heavy or press heavy to get rid of that general feeling of icky-ness. I want to sit and eat all my feelings. I'm just feeling like I could sleep for 90 days and still not feel rested. It's just frustrating right now.
Time for a snack. (cottage cheese with cocoa and a packet of stevia.)
-Bailey
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